No regrets, rather, lessons learned.

2013 was a tough year for me. Tough because I didn't put my complete faith and trust in our Savior, Jesus Christ. Never have I felt anxiety like I did last year. As I have been able to humble myself, I have been able to ponder and reflect on those things Father in Heaven wants me to always remember.

1. Do not procrastinate. Procrastination and laziness is not of God. We have been taught and counseled over and over again about the importance of not procrastinating. Always be prepared. Always.

2. Prayer! It is a healing power.

3. It is okay NOT to be in control of everything for everyone in my little family, all of the time. It is so empowering to finally be able to let go of certain control and trust that my family will make the choices necessary for themselves in order for each of them to progress in life. This in turn also allows me to progress.

4. There is absolutely nothing more important in this life and in the eternities, than my marriage. Addiction is heartbreaking. At times, it seems like it is impossible and unfair to continue supporting Michael in his daily fight against addiction. In a book I read last year, the author made a profound statement that has stuck with me ever since: "I understood his pain, his childhood, his conflicts. His weakness and history handicapped his ability to let love triumph in his decisions." This is the nature of addiction. This is not new to me but it has given me the added strength that I need in order to support, love and help him. Michael is the love of my life and I cherish him. He is a choice son of God. Kids, never ever drink alcohol. It is simply not worth it.

5. Let love and faith triumph all things. I know that things will work out in ways that I could never imagine on my own. This is the blessing and power of our Father in Heaven.

There are big changes on the horizon for my family. I now recognize that we are being tested because these changes are good changes. Satan does not want my family to progress. I pray that I can continue to be humbled enough to recognize and be grateful for all of my blessings. Life is so good and God is so kind and mindful of each of us even though it is hard to recognize this when we are in our darkest moments. May God bless us all to continue to endure and press forward.